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Sunday, May 25, 2008

JESUS YOU'RE ALL I NEED

last night hillsongs concert simply brought me flashbacks, memories & encounters i had with God. despite too much of "noise", i was awed by the magnificient presence of the Holy Spirit. just as i was hearing God's voice over the past few weeks of what praise really means, last night's songs just reaffirmed that praise, really starts from the heart.

ashamed to say, i haven't felt like wanting to praise God properly. the past few sundays have just been the occasional "go-with-the-flow" kind of thing. i'm glad for last night's concert. not just for the burst of getting hyped up in worshiping, jumping & shouting around, but also for the Lord to "poke" & nudge me that i need to set my heart right with Him again.

i've been concerned or rather, worried. a sudden sense of anxiety struck me to realise that its my last week of work, and i'm left hanging with no handles to cling on to as i've yet to hear about any directions from certain areas that i've been wanting to explore. i paused & i worry myself, thinking of what i should do if nothing really happens.

i never liked making decisions. cos sometimes making decisions scare me. but its all part of growing up. as much as i do not like growing up, i know its really how i need to learn to rely on God more than my own humanly self.

its scary to think that i don't know what i'm doing after the month of june, i don't even want to think about it. but i guess reality do step in and i will need to learn to trust God for wisdom, discernment & to trust that His plans will work out.

sometimes i think God is pretty scary too, in certain last min encounters i have had with Him. but i know, there's a lot more i can do in learning to surrender and trust Him. its painful & i can't bear to handle fears of unknown. but i know that God is good.

and i won't be just asking, but truly crying out that i will learn to trust God, more than i can rely myself on. that all things will work out according to His plans.

a song for the moment:

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

My Healer, You're my Healer

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

Jesus You're all I need :)

she pens down @ 11:17 PM --------------------------------------------------------------