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Sunday, March 09, 2008

well it has been a struggle to keep a certain someone off my thoughts for the past week. every now and then i felt like i was trying to fight certain inner conflicts, my tendency to disobedience and some personal reluctancy between my irrational yet logical mindset.

but through it all, i managed to truly spend one hour for 5 out of 7 days in the quietness of my room with the presence of God this week. which i personally felt that it was a tremendous achievement.

i thank God for His divine time and His amazing arrangements too. it was only today when i saw how i'm beginning to understand what it means to have consistent efforts in learning how to seek God in the midst of not-wanting-to seek Him. thank God for that :)

anyways, i did a good 3-hour job of cleaning up my entire classroom yesterday while i was at work, to the extent of vacuuming all the cubby holes and every individual corners, scrubbing all my tables & chairs. to justify my good efforts and willingness to clean, i cleared my wardrobe, cupboards and drawers this afternoon too.

my mum went, "WAH, you finally found time to tidy your room". well if you've been to my place, don't be deceived by the neatly arranged outer appearance of my room cos all the messyness are in the hidden places. and i must say that i'm TERRIBLY TERRIBLY PROUD OF MYSELF for what i've done these 2 days!

err but well, with the exception that my arms are aching and my back's hurting.
heh :)


she pens down @ 10:24 PM
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