Wednesday, February 20, 2008

"LIFE WITHOUT JESUS IS LIKE A DONUT"

mel & i spent monday night staying over at shuyan's room in temasek hall and we finally completed our jigjaw puzzle at 6am! we hardly slept because we both left for work @ 7am. well, we are crazy people but its just kinda fun doing it once in a while. anyways, i got home from work feeling like i could really fall asleep standing up. try going for 2 whole days at work with a chaotic class, surviving on only 30mins of sleep and being up for 40hours straight? okayys okayys, so i slept from 8pm to 6am and i went to work feeling a lot better this morning :)

work has been somewhat disappointing. its more of disappointment in myself i guess. i'm beginning to find that i'm losing my patience with my kids. it didn't happen before, even when there was just this once when i was super frustrated. maybe i'm not as patient as i thought i was. but i thank God too, for the opportunity to lead devotion in the morning. with all the child-likeness in singing and praying, it sort of prepares me for the day as i'm reminded to tap onto the resources of God's presence and guidance throughout the day.

listening to sunday school and children's worship songs never fail to bring back memories as i reminisced my past experiences and encounters with kids. as i thought about it, the past few months have been filled with many gatherings with my fellow david club's leaders. sunday mornings are not the same anymore, without the little ones, without the companion of sunday school songs and less catching up with the team.

for the past 5 months after leaving my service in gkidz, i thought and and lamented on the fact that i missed serving the children with this team, complained why i had to leave, tried to make myself accept the fact that i've made the decision to leave on my own, feeling ashamed and unconvicted to answer anyone who asked for my reason for leaving david club. but God has been good, He made me see not just what i've missed out on leaving the club. He also made me see the need to keep this childlikeness in myself for Him and to trust with childlike faith.

i used to be very much reliant and reminded by each sunday's service to the kids which kept me on track with my relationship with God. but now that i'm further away from these reminders each sunday, i recognised the need to keep myself on track with more independence with and dependence on the Lord. and even though i still miss serving the kids together with the team each sunday, i know that i'm in good hands and i'm still in God's training programme.

thank you sam for your timely soundtracks of the donut man series! :)

she pens down @ 10:33 PM --------------------------------------------------------------