Sunday, February 24, 2008

i was just feeling upset & frustrated over some issues with someone at work yesterday. but after thinking through things, i decided that the person isn't worth getting worked up over or worth any single drop of my tears. yet its just somewhat upsetting that there are people like that, claiming efforts which aren't theirs.

but after the little argument and hidden unhappiness in my heart, i realised that i'm not that forgiving after all. i still hold on to grudges of the past incidents/encounters i had with that particular someone at work. maybe i need to let go and forgive. maybe i need to learn what it means to love someone whom i detest and even talking to.

yet i know i shouldn't be complaining. i'm thankful too, that i've got a nice & motherly chinese teacher who partners me in taking my class. she helps and guides me a lot, protects and guards me when she sees that particular someone or some others are trying to poke their noses into our business.

layleng taught me to pray a special prayer ever since i started working. she taught me to pray that no matter where i'll be or when i'll be, i will have a genuine friend to be alongside with me. and ever since i started on that prayer, i've been facing things that i don't want to face, people who are not whom they seemed to be and realising that there's a bigger world out there. but God answered my prayers and He is still answering them. although some of the nicer people have left my workplace ever since i entered, i am still blessed by the individual genuine people He sent in different points of time.

i pray too, that i will continue to make that prayer a guide and comfort throughout the rest of my life :)

she pens down @ 12:02 AM --------------------------------------------------------------