Sunday, December 09, 2007

a different language.
a different form of worship.
a different audience.
a different deliverance of sermon.
a different atmosphere.
a different kind of revelation.


attending chinese service this morning made me realised many things that i've been putting at the back of my mind. emotions that i've been hiding, feelings that i've always wanted to show, actions that i've always wanted to take. yet lately, i find myself thinking about things that i shouldn't think of, saying the things that i shouldn't say and doing the things that i shouldn't do.


does it really take something out of the usual/ordinary routine for me to realise even more things that i don't wish to reveal myself?


sometimes i don't even believe in myself.
how does God even believe in me?


maybe this is just a typical emo entry. i try not to but it looks like my illogical heart just can't seem to connect and bring itself up to the same level as my logical mind.


its the end of another week and the beginning of a new week AGAIN. and there's just 3 weeks left to the end of the year. maybe its good to get emo-ish at this point in time so that i can wallow in self-pity for a while and then wake up to reality to begin a fresh start in the new year to come.

or maybe i just need a deeper thirst and a new enlightment from the Holy Spirit.

she pens down @ 10:34 PM --------------------------------------------------------------