Friday, June 08, 2007

"If you look at the world, you will be distressed.
If you look within, you will be depressed.
BUT if you look at Christ, you will be at rest."


this was something that i pondered over the past few days.


more often than not, we experience stress more than peace in various aspects of our lives. it is true that when we feel stress, we rely on ourselves rather than God's strength to tide us through. Because becoming tense is a clear indication that we have drifted off our attention on the Lord and putting them unto cirumstances.


Proverbs 3:5-6 is something that i have always known or so called, remember clearly because these verses have been used so often. but i looked at these verses again last night and God brought something into my mind.


well, i'm tied down by many things and more often than not, it is due to self-inflicted stress. there is so little time and so many things to do. i know i fix my focus on the wrong things.yet it is hard to trust and to want to understand at the same time.


i have been figuring out the many things that God wants to do in my life. but i also realised that that i have wasted time and energy trying to figure things out. because God will only show me what He wants me to know in His time. i don't really want to learn things the hard way but if it means that i have to wait, then i will. because i know that dwelling on the unpleasant circumstances will hinder me from moving on.


besides, this week has been a tough week. it is a tough week to begin, yet with many more difficult weeks to come. i am still struggling to control my kids and experimenting how i can divide my attention for the 8 of them. dealing with their temprements, stubbornness, their refusals to listen to me and especially when they play out & test me have scared me quite a bit.

well, i was off from work today due to practicum seminar. it was like a good break for me since i felt that i was fighting a lot of external and internal battles the past few days. but surprisingly, i miss my kids.


but still, i had a good time during practicum seminar today. catching up with a few of my classmates has made me realised how far we've been and how much we've changed for the past year. in our perspectives, our characters and our professional development. this is certainly the beginning of our journeys.


well, putting on the armour of God each day isn't easy. simply becos i know what i am about to face even before i start a new day. but prayer has been a comfort with God's little ways in helping me to tide through each day. and it shall be my weapon to fight through all the crazy hair days i have ahead of me!


*dearest huiyun, i had a great time talking to you. let's plan to meet up in the same classroom next year! :)

she pens down @ 10:02 PM --------------------------------------------------------------