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Monday, April 09, 2007

it was a significant week, with Good Friday and Easter Sunday. this event brings a different meaning to me every year. over the past few days, i have been pondering. trying to comprehend the amount of love that led God to make such a great sacrifice. but i couldn't. i couldn't understand why. i couldn't understand how, even when God knows the amount of pain and anguish He was about to face.


i recalled some significant church leaders sharing about asking God for the revelation of the cross. but i didn't dare to ask for that. it just seem too scary to experience the revelation of the cross. until i heard the Holy Spirit speaking to me during worship yesterday.


"Don't search for an answer or try to understand. Be assured of God's agape love for you. Know that He is God and accept His love. Know that He chose to love you and He loves you."


i broke down in tears, recognising the fact that i have been searching for too many answers on my own.


just last night, i had a flashback during my quiet time. the scene where the flashcards were shown on stage yesterday started playing in my head. i remembered myself feeling the touch of God when the testimonies were given.


a thought: if i were the one standing there, what would MY flashcard say?


she pens down @ 6:39 PM
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